aku ingin tertidur malam ini, mata senduku
jiwanya terasa hangat bersandar
aku berharap dia pergi

aku ingin tertidur malam ini, mata senduku
berharap angin laut menghembuskan doaku
dan rindu terselip itu

aku ingin tertidur malam ini, mata senduku
jangan biarkan henungan malam untuknya lagi

European's and Birthday Wish

Feel free when i was in midterms cause no more journal to assignment , no statement no paper hah so freeeee

Countdown to my birthday and hmmm already write my birthday wish haha, could someone make it true ? :)

But don't know why tonight i have bad feelings, everything scaryy (//.\\)

Dad bring somethings from Europe and I really like it so damn much !

ZARA red basic footwear ballerina

Fossil Woman watch Silicone ES2878

Dad also bought me tee from every European's country that he visited . TOO MUCH -_____-

can't wait to March out, hurry come APRIL :D

really miss my holiday time on dec-jan in yogyakarta so i post pictures to remember .....

feel life kinda be so so boring ? lets move . make some revolution in you . don't ever gave up with life .

and me ? i will change the color of the sky , it may be red , and sun ? i will make it blue . revolution .




dont get stuck in your own life

oh Tuhan , sepertinya blog ku ini sudah dikerumuni oleh sarang laba laba dan berbagai binatang lainnya karena aaaah aku tidak sempat mengisinya . aaaaaaah too much story to told :( bout my birthday , my holiday-travel-and exam with family and boyfie , my SUPER SENSATIONAL ACCIDENT , my "new-ending" school , LIFE AND f*ckin story bout it , until talk about my boyfie :p

life doesn't mean anything without probs . hmm even though , you should walk on it with patiently, super patiently . i don't know how to describe about my last five months life one bye one ..

haaah actually i wanna share picture and story with you , but i know it will spend endless hours haha . i just post this to make my account little life haha , btw for my dad , hmm take care there . cepat pulang bawa oleh oleh hua miss you >.<

however i miss my old life , my composed life , i still love and heart "now-life" cause i believe , there so much mystery in our life :)

happy weekend all , have a blast day :)

far from mom ?

"yaampun makan aja masih disuap , sok sok nekat kuliah di luar ?"

that's exactly what mom said , when i always told her that i will leave home for my education . whoah makes me confuseddddz and not sure again and again for that choice ...
and also dad , he said "are you sure?" when i told him that i had choose outer town university . friends , grandma and zzzzzzzz my maid , they not sure that i will stay there without them .

they said i'm spoilt , always need help for doin somethin and i can't stand by myself .
yeah i know it , i always have a fear for somethin that i never done before .

and i'm a wastefullyyy girls oh yes i am . how could you stay without mom ? i dunnoo i must try to do my best , i wont know if i haven't try , rite ?

"what about wash your shirt , not come home late , what will you eat , your health hon ?" my mom ask . mom , oh my god . i know i can't separated from you but i pretend to look brave in front of you . medan is not good anymore for me , the situation makes me nauseous , but is there more comfortable for me ? who knows . pray , and i will try ..

e11even :)

Once upon a time , when the second class of senior high school just began , there's a lovely story started in science 3 . a boy named Gilang and Tantri as the girl . at first both of them don't know each other . but the times keep running and make them have a friendship . Gilang search for new girlfriend and Tantri helped him although just a lil bit haha . and gilang has found his new girlfriend last Feb :) However , their friendship not end at all , it still turn up , and even it they get closer everyday .

Until one day , Gilang felt bored with his girlfriend . He told me that he can't trough this anymore . so i told him to break up and search the new one . then i gave him a girl but , it needs totally hard work , aite ? haha so Gilang gave up and doesn't want to tried anymore ..

But times bring us to the that time , to the point of what i told you these . Tantri and Gilang get closer everyday . pass the days and night together . Thats makes Tantri feel nothing without Gilang by her side (hahah :D)

Finally , they start their new relationship at 11th October 2009 . But theres thousand problems , million envious people , billion unbeliveble faces . However , they will trough it all with happy face , no matter how much sick fuckin people disturbed , together and forever :)

-THE END-

happy eight weeks love , your request to posted this story has come true :)

i'm not

tingkah sama sifat itu sama atau enggak ? aku sih ngerasanya beda , kerna tingkah itu apa yang dilakukannya . misalnya tingkah nya seperti anak anak , yaa artinya dia berkelakuan , berbuat seperti anak anak . sedangkan sifat itu ya kekmana di dalam diri dia . kayak dia cepat kali ngerajuk seperti anak anak . terus tingkah biasanya berasal dari otak dan pikiran , sedangkan sifat seharusnya berasal dari hati . memang sama sama terarah ke childish , tapi berbeda sumbernya .

tingkah sama sifat udah jelas berbeda kata ayren , tingkah itu sesuatu yang gak pasti dan DAPAT DIBUAT BUAT sedangkan sifat itu memang bawaan .
kalo menurut marina juga beda , kalo tingkah itu yang dilakukan , sedangkan sifat itu dasar perilaku .
sherley bilang "kayaknya beda tak" tanpa penjelasan haha .

buat kamu , jadi bisa ngerti kan sekarang , aku gak pernah mau berubah menjadi seperti mu , seperti sifatkekanak kanakan . memang aku childish , baik tingkah maupun sifatku , tapi memang begini adaku ,semua juga udah tau udah ngerti .tak pernah sedikitpun keinginanku , minatku , atau pun NIAT untuk berubah sepertimu . maaf . aku memang bersalah besar padamu , tapi aku bukan peng-copy mu . aku bukan seorang copy cat :)

hmm aku gak ngajak kamu perang kok dari post aku yang ini , aku cuma pengen explain aja ke kamu biar gak ada salah paham ,maaf jika berlebihan . hemmm enjoy your weekend all :)

i think i'll be trapped again in same old story . it's pathetic , how friendship , how it should be a lovely , turning into hostility . how could i get out from this tearful tragedy . huuhhh :( , but forget about it . i've heard a new song and i love that lyrics !

"When you love someone just be brave to say
That you want him to be with you
When you hold your love don’t ever let him go
Or you will loose your chance to make your dream come true

I never thought that I'm so strong
I stuck on you and wait so long
But when love comes it can’t be wrong
Don’t ever give up, just try and try to get what you want
Cause love will find the way"

i pick it from "when you love someone-endah n rhesa"
its simple but touching me , oww ! haha and boy don't you know , your egoism will not lead you into good way . u'r kind boy but that's your minus , you never want to know what across in the other minds about what you are ! and what about my fast ? haha i'm not fasting until today , from week ago hahaha . i lost it haha but it's not bad because i act like devil who ask people to canceled out they fast hahaha i love it haha*devil laugh*

it's such a looooong day that i wasting with them , lovely guy haha always made me want to laugh everyway haha :D



and for everyone , enjoy your holiday :)

Dissapointed

sakit hati terasa sekarang , setelah kau beri yah hanya sekedar omong kosong dan basa basi mu , hhaha , kau bahkan tak tau bagaimana sakitnya jadi aku haha senang rasanya melepas harapan ta* ini hahahaha pergi kau pergi jauh jauh jangan balik lagi kau cuma bikin rusak hariku aja ahahha tai lo hahaa :D

Wrong Way

I'm not in the good way , I'm choosing the wrong way ..
Writing the diary with my blood ..

I've tried to injure my left hands with sharp things , not just once , twelve maybe . but never passed in my mind to do this things

haha , maybe I'll doing that if I hurt again , or on my way to die .

Here we go again ...

"no one ever said that life was fair , and I'm not saying that it should be ." - Congratulation I hate you , Alesana .

Aku masih gaktau apakah hidup ini , hidup yang aku jalani ini , adil atau enggak . Dari segi mana mereka menganggap adil atau enggaknya dunia ini ? Apa dari nasib yang mereka dapat ? Dari seberapa besar pendapatan orang tua mereka ? Dari apa yang mereka makan ? Atau hanya melihat dengan orang yang berada di atas , mereka merasa iri , dan merasa tak adil ? Begitukah ?

Beberapa temenku merasa hidup ini gak adil karena para lelaki mereka hanya mementingkan teman atau hobby dari pada pacar , yang membuat mereka di lupakan , dan diputuskan karena lelaki menganggap mereka bertingkah .

Temenku yang lain menganggap bahwa dunia ini gak adil karena ia merasa ditipui dan dikhianati oleh sahabatnya sendiri , yang sebenernya hanya salah paham .

Dan aku , aku sendiri , pernah sekali merasa hidup ini gak adil , sangat tidak adil ! Pada saat orang yang kukagumi menjadi milik orang yang ku anggap sebagai SAHABAT BAIK . Disaat aku mengikhlaskannya , disaat aku merelakannya , dia datang padaku . Namun , yaaa , aku membuat kesalahan lagi , sehingga akulah dianggap sebagai PENGGANGGU hubungan orang . Padahal , siapa yang datang padaku ? DIA , lelaki itu !
Pada saat itu aku merasa benar benar dunia ini tidak adil , dia yang berbuat salah tapi kenapa aku yang disalahkan ?


Hanya Allah yang tau . Huahahhaha :DD

ayoo kawan , kita jalani hidup ini sebaik baiknya :)

I've done and I'm fed up

yeah , i've done made my banner for my new blog . ooh my god , what a hell day . here one of the results :


I shouldn't face this day with this all . I'm trying to forget about my exam , but he always loaded in my mind , so i still remember the situation on exam . oh shit i hate that :(
menurut nomor ujian , aku berada di nomor dua dari belakang karena namaku paling akhir . so I must have a preparations , to save my self and my report card huahuahua .
I still don't know about this all . about my life , about my friends . I think everyone doesn't care about that , so that's what I do . But , actually , they care about me . But I just care about my self . They don't care about me , that's what I've thought . And that's wrong .. They care about me , they love me . but I still ignored that . Ooh my god , I'm sorry . I swear we will fix this problem okay :)

It's late at night , i had been made a plan to studying my history and KWN . but , apa mau dikata , too late feel lazy . I'm lazy for done allll , huahuahua , why ?

Tomorrow , I will studying God , I really really want to up to the next grade . help me , god :D wish me luck :)