Nikmati

dadanya penuh
menahan gemuruh
rindu

tangannya penuh
menggenggam teguh
pilu

biarlah
ia kecup sejenak
ia pilah sebentar
sebelum matahari memaksanya berkeringat

kita nikmati bersama bunga
sebagai saksi
kehidupan yang sekali ini

BIAS LAMPU DI ASPAL BASAH

dalam setiap inci jalanan kasar ini kubenamkan semua
tetap akan ada kesempatan baru untuk si pecundang
akan kucatat semua perjalanan waktuku
akan ku kacaukan semua yang lalu!

dalam kebingungan 
semua terlintas.
cepat dan hangat!

aku menghadapi dunia baruku:
disambut bias lampu jalanan malam ini .

aku ingin tertidur malam ini, mata senduku
jiwanya terasa hangat bersandar
aku berharap dia pergi

aku ingin tertidur malam ini, mata senduku
berharap angin laut menghembuskan doaku
dan rindu terselip itu

aku ingin tertidur malam ini, mata senduku
jangan biarkan henungan malam untuknya lagi

Lykke Li – Possibility

Mungkin : Aku kurang memohon

mendung selalu bercengkrama dengan angin
matahari menepi, tersipu akan kedatangan mereka

disekelibat antara rindumu, tersembunyi sesak........dan sesal
tersipu, namun juga bergulung
pulang bukan jawaban,
tersesatlah agar terbingkai
temukan, tentukan dalamnya seonggah rindu yang menebal

nyanyian deru tak usah kau ubah
berbaris baris suara yang sumbang,
menerjang,
singgah,
diam-diam pergi lagi

jangan ucap lagi, apapun tersisa

bukankah semua memiliki akhir? 

puisi akhir juni, akhir cerita

i'm alive still alive

Seems it takes very long long time, I'm not writing anymore. Class really take my time, also my bedtime. Only one or two weekend that i can waste with friends, cause really i neeeed to laugh and see my old friends growin up without me. 

I really missing my old time, when every homework can done together, not like this lecture. Every student must have different object to done. I miss every extracurricular day that we used to waste, every Physical Education class that we used to do.......seems like everything changin.. age, face, habitual, places, school, and friends. I just need to put all of my memories back of my brain, and really concentrate to my future. not to forget all of my memories, but....everyone has forget about it!! and i'm still alive and really wanted it all back. How could i stand alone? I can't.

So here I am. Wishing all the best for all my friends, and also for me too. 

Wish we have best luck in every step :)

Throw Your Flat Shoes for A While

AFTER THEY WAITED

this 3rd April , there are still surprise for me that can wait after floods recede . Sabbila, Ofi, Green, Iwang still have cake for me to blow out the candles :)

this is iwang , my college friend :) *my face seriously bad*

they also makes me bath with "eggs and coffee" sh*t that was ver very damn smelly .

hahaha i will never forget today :) so much memories from this birthday hahahhaa

First April and Flood

Happy birthday to me :D First April is my birthday haha eighteen years is the age that indicating me that i was ready to face this world full of fake :) Thanks for all the pray all those wishes you gave , thanks for the SURPRISE and CAKE :D

Tari, Ali, sama Dani pagi pagi dateng kerumah masuk kamar kasi surprise nyanyi nyanyi , aaaagh unfortunately the pictures are in tari's camera i forgot to asked those photos >.< And on night, arlia came alone and bring super-duper-nyummieeh cake and sing happy birthday to me alone , that was a ROMANTIC moment that she shared with me ^^ she also hit me with eggs on my head under the rain and finally we're dancing under the rain hahaha

capture it with my phone so isn't too good

But bad newwws, Medan is flood aaaah floods everywhere . Traffic jam , stuck in moment when i was on my way to campus. My lecturer force that OCEANOGRAPHY MID TERMS MUST BE IMPLENTED EVEN IT FLOOD ! God ! Finally I got my campus by TRUC

K and also wet shoes .

Today i was on Indri's home just spent my weekend time . When i was on bathroom to pee , Muhza knock on the door force me to out because she want to pee too . So I open the door and they scream "HAPPY BIRTHDAY" oh gosh i love you fellaaaaas :*

so i have 3 delicious nyummeh cakes from my lovey , thanks gallssss i don't want to lose you . hope i can be better :)

thanks all , for the great expression and prays . i lovs you all :*

European's and Birthday Wish

Feel free when i was in midterms cause no more journal to assignment , no statement no paper hah so freeeee

Countdown to my birthday and hmmm already write my birthday wish haha, could someone make it true ? :)

But don't know why tonight i have bad feelings, everything scaryy (//.\\)

Dad bring somethings from Europe and I really like it so damn much !

ZARA red basic footwear ballerina

Fossil Woman watch Silicone ES2878

Dad also bought me tee from every European's country that he visited . TOO MUCH -_____-

can't wait to March out, hurry come APRIL :D

HEMAT BEB

demi dia dan si buah hati , aku harus bisa hemat buat nabung biar cepat siapnya !
btw i'm on mid semester term , wish me luck :)

DECEMBER

"I'm so glad you made time to see me
How's life? Tell me, how's your family?
I haven't seen them in a while

You've been good, busier than ever
We small talk, work and the weather
Because the last time you saw me

Is still burned in the back of your mind"



see you soon love, i will always remember that december .. i miss you , take care there . dont forget your promise . I read it over and over again

"wherever i will go , my heart still for you . calm down .. hold my hand lay in my shoulder i swear i will marry you . nothing to worry , we are endless .."

only two more days ..... til you left this town , me .

really miss my holiday time on dec-jan in yogyakarta so i post pictures to remember .....